Saturday, May 20, 2017

Chris Cornell: The Muses Choose Broken Vessels

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The Alternative Rock explosion of the early 90s was fueled by a wave of great singers. After a lost decade of metallic shriekers and New Wave gurglers-- which some call the 80s-- there was suddenly an embarrassment of strong voices revitalizing rock music, especially hard rock music. 

Most of these had cut their teeth on punk and hardcore and subsequently learned to trim back the fat and excess that torpedoed their 70s forebears. They also learned to step around the wretched excesses that ran the 80s metal explosion into the ground; cookie-cutter sameness, image over substance, half-written songs, cliche piled on cliche.

Alternative rock would itself get watered down and xeroxed into oblivion, especially as careerists figured out a way to counterfeit the formula (I'm looking at you, Candlebox and Seven Mary Three) and record companies signed up every pseudo-grunge band they could find (and strong-armed other acts to hop on the bandwagon). 

By the end of the 90s it all devolved into an obnoxious fratboy rock (I'm looking at you, Limp Bizkit and Creed) that reached its inevitable apotheosis at the disastrous Woodstock '99 (held on a decommissioned military base). 

But before that all went down some of the most vital and exciting rock music of all time was produced.

Alternative Rock, or more accurately GenX Rock, has taken its place in the classic rock canon. Tracks by Nirvana, Soundgarden, Stone Temple Pilots and the Red Hot Chili Peppers are snuggled in tightly between all the Led Zeppelin, Aerosmith and Pink Floyd cuts overplayed on FM radio. But five of the most remarkable vocalists of that era- Kurt Cobain, Layne Staley, Jeff Buckley, Scott Weiland and now Chris Cornell--- are lost to us.

And the 9-ton Tyrannosaurus lurking in the back of the concert hall is that modern plague, clinical depression. It's a subject I'm all too familiar with. It's the witches' curse on Generation X.

Chris Cornell was an enigmatic figure among the Grunge pantheon. If Kurt Cobain was the snotty punk, Eddie Vedder the self-serious poet, Layne Staley the tortured howler and Scott Weiland the Joker in the pack, Cornell was an entirely unique presence, as was Soundgarden. Tall, lean but ripped, possessing an odd, androgynous beauty and an enviable black mane, he came across as aloof, Olympian. His piercing, multi-octave voice felt like a weapon,  more like an incarnation of Apollo the Destroyer than Ozzy Osbourne.

Similarly, Soundgarden was perhaps the most effective translator of the power of early Black Sabbath yet, but were brainy, difficult, challenging. 

They were unmistakably Heavy Metal-- in the original, Blue Cheer definition of the term --but didn't shriek the usual ditties about dick size and date rape. It was pretty clear they had no time for that kind of nonsense (See "Big Dumb Sex"). It was clear they took as much inspiration from King Crimson and Black Flag as from Zeppelin and Sabbath. 

Their first major single was an epic environmentalist jeremiad that goofed on Metal's "kill-your-mother-music" reputation by screaming "you're going to kill your mother" in the refrain. The mother here being Mother Earth, of course.

Predictably, Chris Cornell's corpse was literally not cold yet before the modern ambulance chasers of the Internet were declaring it was obviously an Illuminati sacrifice. One hilarious YouTard video went on about how there was no other explanation for Cornell's death, that he'd have no reason to kill himself. 

Obviously someone who never actually listened to a single stitch of Soundgarden.

Like Ian Curtis-- who hung himself 37 years almost to the day before-- many of Cornell's lyrics read like suicide notes. After all, this is a man who kicked off one of his biggest hits with the couplet "Nothing seems to kill me/ No matter how hard I try." Two of his other big hits "Black Hole Sun" and "Fell on Black Days" are practically master classes in the art of expressing the utter hopelessness ("'Neath the black the sky looks dead") that can overtake you when a depressive episode strikes. 

The same goes for Soundgarden's breakout hit, "Outshined," practically a hymn about searching for a crack of sunlight while waiting a dire episode out. "The Day I Tried to Live" is even more astonishing, a documentary retelling of those mornings when depression- aggression turned inwards- becomes aggression turned on the world outside.

Cornell was very candid about his struggles with depression. In an interview with Rolling Stone he discussed the inspiration for "Fell on Black Days":
This reissue includes several versions of "Fell on Black Days," which is pretty dark. What inspired it? 

Well, I had this idea, and I had it for a long time. I'd noticed already in my life where there would be periods where I would feel suddenly, "Things aren't going so well, and I don't feel that great about my life." Not based on any particular thing. I'd sort of noticed that people have this tendency to look up one day and realize that things have changed. There wasn't a catastrophe. There wasn't a relationship split up. Nobody got in a car wreck. Nobody's parents died or anything. The outlook had changed, while everything appears circumstantially the same. That was the song I wanted to write about. 
No matter how happy you are, you can wake up one day without any specific thing occurring to bring you into a darker place, and you'll just be in a darker place anyway. To me, that was always a terrifying thought, because that's something that – as far as I know – we don't necessarily have control over. So that was the song I wanted to write. 
It wasn't just for the gloom-metal gimmick of Soundgarden that Cornell laid bare his struggles. They crept into tracks he recorded with Audioslave- the supergroup made up of Cornell and the musicians of Rage Against the Machine, including their biggest hit "Like a Stone."

Cornell was also candid about his history with clinical depression, which he traced back to a somewhat hardscrabble upbringing. 
Cornell abstained from drug use for a time following an adverse reaction to the hallucinogenic PCP, but the frightening, dissociative experience, coupled with the trauma of his parent’s divorce, plunged him into a severe depression. “I went from being a daily drug user at 13 to having bad drug experiences and quitting drugs by the time I was 14 and then not having any friends until the time I was 16. There was about two years where I was more or less agoraphobic and didn’t deal with anybody, didn’t talk to anybody, didn’t have any friends at all.”
And clearly showing that he also struggled with suicidal ideation, Cornell foreshadowed his own end in an interview with, saying, “You’ll think somebody has run-of-the-mill depression, and then the next thing you know, they’re hanging from a rope." 

Writer Kate Paulk wrote about the black dog of depression recently and offered up an apt metaphor lifted from pop culture:
Let’s start by clearing up one thing. Sadness, grieving in response to a loss… that is not depression. It’s sadness. Grief. It passes with time, and even at its worst there are moments of joy and hope. Depression is not like that. Everything is poisoned. 
J. K. Rowling is describing depression when she describes the Dementors and their impact. Get too near a Dementor and every good feeling, every happy memory will be sucked out of you. 
This is precisely what depression does. There is an absence of hope, an inability to believe that there can ever be anything positive in your life again. That isn’t sadness or grief, and it isn’t necessarily expressed by tears.
Cornell was also a substance abuser and dove headlong into an opioid addiction after Soundgarden split in 1997. It may well have come from a chronic pain issue, closely related to chronic depression: 
People with depression show abnormalities in the body’s release of its own, endogenous, opioid chemicals. Depression tends to exacerbate pain—it makes chronic pain last longer and hurts the recovery process after surgery. 
“Depressed people are in a state of alarm,” said Mark Sullivan, a professor of psychiatry at the University of Washington. “They’re fearful, or frozen in place. There’s a heightened sense of threat.” That increased threat sensitivity might also be what heightens sensations of pain. 
Opioids certainly aren't very effective painkillers in the long term but they are very effective anesthetics when you're struggling with chronic depression. 
Opioids treat pain, but depression and pain are often comorbid, and some antidepressants relieve neuropathic pain even in the absence of depression. Depression involves dysfunction in monoamine systems, the hypothalamus-pituitary-adrenal (HPA) axis, and hippocampal neurogenesis, but could it also be rooted in a deficit of endorphins, or even an endopharmacological withdrawal state? 
Before the modern antidepressant era, depression was often treated with opiates—with a sometimes heavy price of addiction.  
The real hell of opioids is that they rewire your brain, causing the natural processes that regulate depression and euphoria to atrophy. Depression can skyrocket when you stop taking them, since your brain basically forgot how to produce sufficient amounts of the neurotransmitters that manage your moods.
u-agonists relieve depression-like behavior acutely, but tolerance develops, and depression is worse on withdrawal from long-term administration. Delta-agonists appear to improve mood, while kappa-agonists worsen it. There is evidence that opioid dysfunction accounts for lack of pleasure in depression, while problems with dopamine impair motivation. Opioid systems, then, participate in many mood-related functions. They are examples of evolutionary repurposing of neurotransmitters that originally evolved for one purpose to meet a variety of other needs.

Cornell's family is understandably shocked by his death. His widow blames an elevated dose of the tranquilizer Ativan for the somewhat disturbing performance he put on in Detroit and his resulting suicide. 
Cornell died on the evening May 17th, 2017, shortly after performing a concert with Soundgarden in Detroit, MI. His death was met with shock by many; his representative described it as "sudden and unexpected," adding that the singer's family will be "working closely with the medical examiner to determine the cause." 
Hours after his death was reported, the Wayne County Medical Examiner's office ruled Chris' death a suicide by hanging. According to Us Weekly, a family friend had found Cornell on the bathroom floor of his MGM Grand hotel room. ABC News also reported that two Detroit papers claimed that Cornell was found with "a band around his neck," though Detroit Police spokesman Michael Woody could not confirm that information. 
Cornell's wife, Vicky, released a statement on his death on Friday, May 19th, 2017, in which she cast doubts that his suicide was intentional. In fact, on the day of his death, Vicky claimed they had "discussed plans for a vacation over Memorial Day and other things we wanted to do." "When we spoke after the show, I noticed he was slurring his words; he was different. When he told me he may have taken an extra Ativan or two, I contacted security and asked that they check on him," she said. 
"What happened is inexplicable and I am hopeful that further medical reports will provide additional details," she continued. "I know that he loved our children and he would not hurt them by intentionally taking his own life."
I think the fact that Cornell ad-libbed verses from "In My Time of Dying" over a rendition of "Slaves and Bulldozers" during the closing encore in Detroit  gives a fairly compelling signal that he had resolved himself to a course of action that night. Despite an incredibly shaky performance he seemed in good spirits to some, all too common with depressives resolved to suicide. But others noticed he seemed irritable and unfocused, forgetting the lyrics. He complimented the Detroit audience and then said, "I feel sorry for the next city."

An extra Ativan or two is unlikely to induce suicide. But long-term use of it (it's recommended that lorezepam-- a member of the highly-problematic benzodiazepene family-- be used only a short term basis) might. And it's very possible he took an extra dose of the drug to gird his loins for a decision he had already made:
Suicidality: Benzodiazepines may sometimes unmask suicidal ideation in depressed patients, possibly through disinhibition or fear reduction. The concern is that benzodiazepines may inadvertently become facilitators of suicidal behavior. Therefore, lorazepam should not be prescribed in high doses or as the sole treatment in depression, but only with an appropriate antidepressant.
Depression and suicidal ideation go hand in glove. And there are all kinds of psychiatric drugs that tell you upfront that suicidal ideation is a major side effect. How that doesn't keep them off the market is a mystery to me. 

The other problem is that people who obsess on suicide usually don't talk about it with people close to them since they realize that confessing to it will very likely act to derail what they have been planning. And again, professionals will tell you that very often when a depressive has resolved themselves to suicide they can often seem very cheerful and upbeat, since they believe that their suffering will soon end. 

So the question becomes if a rich, celebrated and handsome rock star can't find a reason to stay alive, what hope is there for the rest of us? Well, it's a lot more complicated than that. Aside from his struggles with clinical depression, Cornell was also beset by tragedy, losing people closest to him to early death. 

The first of these was his roommate Andrew Wood, the flamboyant singer for legendary Seattle band Mother Love Bone who died of a heroin overdose in 1990. Cornell was so shaken by Wood's death that he formed a defacto supergroup with members of MLB and recorded the now-legendary Temple of the Dog album as a tribute, which produced the grunge anthem "Hunger Strike" (featuring a duet between Cornell and future Pearl Jam star Eddie Vedder).

Temple of the Dog in fact led to the formation of Pearl Jam, facilitated by the introduction of Vedder to the Seattle scenesters by drummer Jack Irons, a member of the original Red Hot Chili Peppers who also played with Pearl Jam and Joe Strummer, among an army of others. Strangely enough, Irons has his own struggles with depression. As did Joe Strummer, for that matter. 

The Muses choose broken vessels. It's a Secret Sun truism. 

Cornell was so shaken by Wood's death that it would haunt Soundgarden songs as well.
The song you workshopped the most was "Like Suicide." In the liner notes, you say it kind of became a metaphor for how you were feeling at the time about late Mother Love Bone frontman Andy Wood. 
Yeah, the lyrics were actually this simple moment that happened to me. I don't know that I ever directly related it to Andy, though there are a lot of songs that people probably don't know where there were references to him or how I was feeling about what happened with him. I just think that that was something that happened to me that was a traumatic thing and that I had a difficult time resolving it. I still never really have. I still live with it, and that's one of the moments where maybe in some ways it could have shown up, but I'm not really sure specifically where.
Another body blow was the 1994 death of Kurt Cobain, another friend who died in time to cast a pall of existential darkness over Soundgarden's epochal Superunknown album, released a month before Cobain's death. So even as Soundgarden were enjoying their moment, death and tragedy revisited Cornell. (Cobain had his own issues, exacerbated by years of opioid abuse, but there are those of us who don't buy the suicide angle in this particular case).

It had to hurt, especially since Cobain had told Cornell that Soundgarden has inspired him to form Nirvana in the first place. 

Superunknown was an instant classic, easily one of the top 10 Hard Rock albums ever recorded, hammering you with one killer track after another. Along with Stone Temple Pilots' Purple album, Pearl Jam's Vitalogy and several others it established 1994 as the watershed for Alernative Rock, despite Cobain's death and Nirvana's dissolution. 

Soundgarden's 1996 follow-up Down on the Upside, failed to capitalize on its predecessor's momentum, and seem to showcase a band uncertain of direction and sense of purpose. No one was really surprised when Soundgarden broke up the following year. Oddly enough the breakup seemed to go down almost exactly three years after Kurt Cobain's death. 

But Tragedy wasn't finished with Cornell yet. Shortly after Soundgarden broke up Cornell would lose another soulmate.
He lost two friends within the space of a few years. Cobain died in 1994 and, three years later, singer-songwriter Jeff Buckley, practically a brother to Cornell, drowned while swimming in a tributary of the Mississippi in Tennessee.

"Kurt was fairly quiet and introverted most of the time. Jeff was the opposite. He was very much full of life and had a lot to say. He was somebody in love with experiencing everything. Within a very short time, he had all these famous old rock stars coming to his shows. Which put a a lot of pressure on him. People talked about his concerts the way they used to talk about Hendrix: they'd sit there, wide-eyed, telling you stories about him. He definitely had an aura. It's impossible to say what it is exactly a guy like that has, that is so attractive to other people. But he had more of it than anyone I had ever met."
Of course, this brings all this squarely into the Secret Sun wheelhouse. Cornell would be haunted by Buckley's death, writing the aching "Wave Goodbye" (in which he seems to channel Buckley's ghost) for his first solo album and acting as a de facto executor-slash-curator for Buckley's posthumous releases.

This tells us a lot, since the 20th anniversary of Jeff Buckley's death is coming up fast and furious. Cornell showed he was clearly still haunted by Buckley's passing when he brought the late singer's old landline phone onstage with him during his 2011 acoustic solo tour.
KALAMAZOO — I've had several people ask about the red phone that was on stage during Chris Cornell's 130-minute set at the Kalamazoo State Theatre last week. Cornell never addressed it during the show and it never rang, so I didn't think much of it. After another reader asked Monday, I looked into it. 
According to a representative with the New York-based Press Here Publicity, which handled promotion for Cornell's solo tour, the phone belonged to singer/songwriter Jeff Buckley.
As Secret Sun readers will remember, the last song Jeff Buckley sang before his death was "Whole Lotta Love", a blues standard that Led Zeppelin turned into what one critic called "a themonuclear rape."

And it would be "In My Time of Dying," another old blues standard that Led Zeppelin turned into a jackhammering stomper that acted as Cornell's own self-elegy. This, along with the timing of Ian Curtis's own death by hanging in 1980 seems a bit too synchronized for Cornell's death to be some kind of mad whim because he took too much Ativan.  As painful as it might be to admit, it seems as if this was probably a very long time coming. After all, this is the man who wrote "Pretty Noose."

So it seems apparent that it wasn't the Illuminati but in fact the demon possession of depression that took Chris Cornell away from his family. With many of his closest friends gone and the glory days of the 90s more and more a fading memory in a world itself gripped by chronic depression, I can't say I'm surprised by the suicide ruling.  

The life of the rock star in 2017 is a galaxy away from the golden age of the rock star in 1977. It's become a grueling job in the age of streaming and piracy, since you need to make all your money on the road now. Spending your life traveling from one brutalist concrete box to another when you're fifty-two is surely a lot less appealing than when you're twenty-two.

If there's any good to come of this tragedy it's to understand that depression isn't some kind of scarlet letter, it's an inevitable result of what one scientist called "the greatest blind experiment in history," the bombardment of our brains and bodies with every manner of stimulus and stress imaginable, 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, 365 days a year and then some.

Having spend my teenage years in the white-hot cauldron of hardcore punk I can tell you that that kind of hyperstimulation had -- how do I put this? --less than a salutary effect on a lot of people I knew. Seeing that same formula translated into the mainstream culture goes a long way in explaining why depression has become the great mass epidemic of our time. Now it's claimed another trophy and we're all the poorer for it.

But as the Greeks and Romans once said, vita brevis ars longa

French philosophers once said that the invention of motion pictures had conquered death, that people would now live on forever once they were recorded. I guess the same goes for recorded music as well. So I think it's safe to say that after three decades of music, Chris Cornell has earned his place among the immortals. Let's hope someone learns something from his story.


  1. I feel like you're being very dismissive of Black Hole Sun in this whole thing. It's not in any way a clue of him being suicidal. Knowing the symbolism of Saturn and this website is called the secret sun...

    Sound garden (what's in a name) is one of the most esoteric bands (AudioSlave ((what's in a name)) around.

    I'm not crying conspiracy here but after reading your excellent write up on Buckley and then coming to this and seeing such a dismissive post. I think there's a little more to this than just "serious depression".

    We have a lot of their songs that deal with very deep and occult topics.

    "In my eyes, indisposed
    In disguises no one knows
    Hides the face, lies the snake
    The sun in my disgrace"

    "Heaven sent hell away
    No one sings like you anymore"

    In another interview, he elaborates more on this statement:

    "It’s funny because hits are usually sort of congruent, sort of an identifiable lyric idea, and that song pretty much had none. The chorus lyric is kind of beautiful and easy to remember. Other than that, I sure didn’t have an understanding of it after I wrote it. I was just sucked in by the music and I was painting a picture with the lyrics. There was no real idea to get across."- Chris Cornell

    David Bowie had black star.
    Chris Cornell had Black Hole Sun.

    1. How is this post dismissive? I'm trying to explore a very serious issue and that's the epidemic of clinical depression and the roles prescription drugs play. If you want to look for a conspiracy look into the motivations behind the suicide epidemic and the pill mill phenomenon. As to the occult associations here I don't know if they're relavant to the overarching issue.

    2. That Cornell wove esoteric topics into his lyrics doesn't mean that he didn't suffer severe depression

    3. I said I wasn't crying conspiracy so why try and lump what I was saying into that?

      It's dismissive to throw all the blame on pills and depression (as we weren't there we don't know just what we're told) when there's so much more to the story. He's left us with so much work. You made so many great connections in our Sirens article. This is just void of that.

      How aren't they they've followed him his whole career?

      Your reply is just as dismissive.

    4. I'll be revisiting the issue when I talk about the 20th anniversary of Jeff Buckley's death. My main concern now is trying to get people to focus on the overarching issues here and that's the epidemic of clinical depression and suicide that is ripping entire communities apart.

  2. You're bang on the money Chris, as being 52 years old myself and having made one very serious suicide attempt around about 32 years ago (I really should be dead now) I know the signs when I see them and CC had most of them.
    The only way I have ever made it this far from the day I tried to take my own life was to live one day at a time...just like walking a tightrope in a way, one foot in front of the other, because if I was to look too far ahead I would probably fall...or just jump.
    I don't like to use the term "suffering from depression", because who doesn't in this modern world?
    It's the degrees that vary as to whether you don't drown in the black swamp we all tend to swim in, or get thrown into from time to time.
    Carolyn clearly doesn't understand that mindset and for her sake I hope she never does.
    But you have nailed it in this post Chris and I just listened to a good podcast between two guys who admit to bouts of depression, one a comedian (most comedians are just sad clowns underneath) and the other a young musician.
    I would imagine this talk was recorded before the death of Chris Cornell, which is a bit eerie in hindsight.
    Here is the link if you, or any of your readers are interested in listening to that podcast -

    1. Thank you for sharing that with us, Darren. Depression is an issue we'd better get our arms around because it's killing people. In cases like this I prefer to say that someone like Cornell died from complications from clinical depression. And as Dr. Drew Pinsky recently said he should have never been given access to Ativan. There are other anti-anxiety medications that are not in the benzo family and would have been a lot safer for him.

  3. Alternately, in that quote was he speaking from a disguise no one knew? From a life of enjoying artists, the best wrote, painted and acted from intimate knowledge of their subjects. If one's perspective is bleak, Cornell's finding a day with sunshine was more rare and perhaps a clue to his confusion. It's not easy to understand chronic depression and the terrific need to hide it from even those closest. I can't imagine revealing anyone wanting to do an in depth interview with someone in media.

    1. Cornell was probably under tremendous pressure to hide his depression. And as for "having it all" the killer about depression is that it keeps you from enjoying the things that you have. And again, this is a guy who was very, very upfront about his struggles.

    2. Guess I should have been more forthcoming. I have a child who suffers from chronic depression and she keeps it hidden on the worst days. As a mom, I get small clues she's in trouble, but a casual friend might never pick those clues up. Everyone in her orbit is aware of her condition, but when the stress is at its worst, she clams up and often pretends all is okay. Those days, being open is nearly impossible for her. It's awful that some of her worst days can appear to be her best.

      For now she's stable on four drugs and she can laugh and enjoy life, but it's a fact that she and those who share chronic hell may continue to look for another drug or alcohol to "feel better." I still see her hiding some days, but her medication regimen at least gives her a more stable platform for reasoning impossible without those meds. Unfortunately, it can take years sometimes to get a combination that works.

  4. Curated comments!? Jesus fucking Christ, don't bother posting dude. I just felt that you making the argument that it was indeed suicide, when he said nothing to his wife or children that would indicate that he loved them but couldn't take it anymore, or conversely the alternative of placing blame that often accompanies suicide was beyond distasteful. I don't believe he killed himself. I HAVE had suicidal thoughts, in the past, so your argument that you're some sort of authority there because you have is bullshit. Look at the jump in record sales after Weiland's deal and tell me that his record companies won't profit from it. Greatly. They make little off the tour. That's where the artists make their money. Whatever you believe about his death, giddily making the argument for suicide, whatever the coroner might have said, in spite of his wife's vehement denials is beyond messed up. Let the dead rest in peace. Congratulations on your book deal.

    1. OK, let's take a step back and analyze your arguments here. If this was about making money off a dead artist don't you think these conspirators of yours would have waited until the new Soundgarden album was finished? It seems like a dumb move not to. And it's not like Chris Cornell was a megastar like Michael Jackson or Whitney Houston and it's not as if Soundgarden fans don't have all the reissues and that very few outsiders would hop on the bandwagon now. As for his wife she's not denying the suicide she's blaming an overdose (albeit a very small one) of Ativan. Chris Cornell was in practically every high risk category for suicide: middle-aged, white male, history of depression, history of substance abuse, history of personal tragedy, in a high-pressure occupation. I mean, at what point do we acknowledge the obvious? We have to deal with real problems before we go looking for shadowy conspirators.

    2. I'll add this- given all the risk factors for suicide that he had Chris Cornell should have had a minder with him at all times when he was on tour. He should have never been alone in a hotel room with a bottle of tranquilizers.

    3. His wife certainly does deny that he deliberatly killed himself, some of his last words to her were about plans they had for their future. They were already touring, if the album isn't completely finished, it's certainly close. I've read an article w/ Thayil saying that they had enough material for several albums. My problem with what you wrote here was not primarily your sarcastic dismissal of the possible (and certainly plausible given what we know about the nature of the music industry) conspiracy but your absolute insistence on intentional and deliberate suicide rather than accidental death. As for the financial motivations all you have to do is look at the HUGE jump in sales following Weiland's death to know that if the wrong sort of people had a financial stake, then they had every reason to exercise their psychopathic tendencies in order to profit off an icon at the tail end of his career, arguably a far bigger star and certainly more talented, that was maybe out for his last hurrah before he hung it up to raise his family. Either way, this hits home in ways, for me, that go far beyond Chris Cornell and I couldn't possibly explain here and I doubt you'd believe, so, I'll just say that if you find it easier to believe in Ancient Aliens establishing civilization and that there is a big cover up concerning that but dismiss the idea that elements of organized crime may have had something to do with his death ... well, I can certainly understand that. The former is a far more comforting belief, I guess. Either way, I certainly don't know the truth concerning either, but... I respect the words of his widow and take her at her word that she does not believe her husband intentionally killed himself or gave any indication to her that he was feeling suicidal. If she were married to Courtney Love, it's be a whole different ballgame. Although, when it comes to the misuse of medications being a contributing factor in people's deaths? I completely agree with you, if nothing else good comes out of this, hopefully it raises awareness concerning that. The pharmaceutical industry is completely out of control.

    4. Medical Definition of suicide. 1: the act or an instance of taking one's own life voluntarily and intentionally. 2: a person who commits or attempts suicide.

    5. Please go read and watch the numerous interviews with Cornell discussing his struggles with depression and then go do some reading on the topic.

      Depression is not about seeming bummed out all the time. Sometimes some of the most vibrant, outgoing people can suffer from it, it's just that people don't see it. And those people can kill themselves when the viper bites. And people can try to be positive and upbeat for those around them but struggle in silence. This is a neurochemical disorder not a neurosis.

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    7. And let me say this: I'm really tired of hearing conspiracy peddled that is devoid of theory. I'm always ready to entertain a well-argued conspiracy theory but now what we have are claims advanced without evidence, without research, without investigation. It does no one any good at all. It just makes people paranoid.

    8. You disregarded everything I wrote. That's fine, certainly your choice, but why bother responding then? To get the last word? I know all about depression and have read quite a bit about it, as well. Certainly, in my case, it has more to do w/ my reality than any misfirings in my brain. Probably not the case with Cornell, but it's difficult to know. He may have more in common with my situation than I realize. That's entirely beside the point. Obviously you feel the need to believe he deliberatly killed himself. Certainly it makes for a better rock-star narrative. Unless you're his children, eh? It certainly is possible, I suppose, that it was just a spur of the moment thing due to the Ativan, but, and correct me if I'm wrong here, but you seem to be suggesting in the above that it was something that he had planned well in advance. I'd argue that his conversation with his wife completely discredits that.

      Dismissing the possibility of conspiracy, when in a hypothetical case like this the motive is plain, is certainly your choice, but to my mind, these deaths need not involve some strange satanic death ritual mumbo-jumbo to convolute the waters, but really it's a separate issue. Although, I will concede, that adding that veneer of satanism to it, as you did in the case of Whitney Houston (a known and unapologetic crack user, by-the-by), if I remember correctly, certainly wouldn't be anything that hierarchical criminal organizations would discourage, because it adds a level of disbelief in the eyes of the public to something that can be explained simply through the motivations of greed and pure evil. As for evidence, research and investigation, as we saw in the case with Cobain where there is ample evidence that there may have been more going on than the official narrative suggests, deaths that appear to be suicides are hard to disprove. Especially if there are large quantities of money and professional criminals involved. The police will almost invariably go with whatever the initial appearance seems to suggest. People generally accept things at face value. I myself did for quite some time, when I stopped...

      Anyway, I'm not sure what sort of bubble you live in, but in the one I'm under paranoia is the only appropriate response to the world I find myself in. Without a little bit of it, I'm a hundred percent certain I would have walked through the rest of my life a bewildered victim, rather than, say, just a confused one trying to piece the puzzle together as best I can.

      Your niche is obviously the large conspiracies that veer off into fantasy on occasion but have threads of plausibility that can't be ignored. You know, the type that often have the stink of disinformation attached. That's fine. But don't be naive about the world we live in. In many cases (I'd suggest most) in this world, an individuals level of success, at a certain point on the scale, can often be traced to their ability to disregard morals and ethics entirely or an individuals willingness to choke on those other's genitals. Both literally and figuratively. Hence the whole "deal with devil" that our musicians almost invariably joke about with a rueful laugh and sort of sad look in their eyes. I'd suggest that a healthy dose of paranoia is worth more than a dose of LSD in waking people up to the reality of the world they live in and who really is at the controls at the moment. Perhaps, "trust no one" means something else to you? It never ends if we all just passively accept the lie. Personally, I have no reason to. Others obviously do.

      In any case, I believe his wife. I don't think his death was premeditated or intentional. You, obviously, disagree. Beyond that? Who can say?

    9. Thank you for posting. Let me clarify that last paragraph, huh? I don't believe *he* premeditated or intentionally caused his death. As for anyone else? To deny that it's possible and seems to have happened in the past with individuals like himself seems disingenuous to me, but do I know for certain? Obviously not. I'm no more psychic than anyone else, so far as I know.

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    11. Listen, if Cornell hadn't had so many issues and if it wasn't so very clear that he was working them out in his music I'd be looking for another explanation too. But unfortunately this is the hell of depression, just as Cornell said in his very own words. Things can be going great, maybe for a good long time, and then you find yourself thrown back down the stairs and have no idea why. It's not a psychological condition per se, it's a neurological disorder. It's medical. Psychological stresses can make it worse but I've seen people succumb to depression for no good reason at all.

      This is also a lot different than Kurt Cobain, a situation where his grandparents, Courtney Love's father and the investigator hired by Love all came to the conclusion he was murdered. Highly qualified people have done real investigation into the case and produced real evidence. There are clear motives. I don't see any of that in this case and too many mitigating factors that argue this was what it looks like.

  5. An email was sent out in the school district in which I work warning to look out for suicidal warning signs in students. The reason for the concern? There have been 3 suicides since 13 Reasons Why started showing. There seems to be something in the air.

    1. Yeah, that is not making me happy. I really hope that parents of dead kids are calling lawyers right now.

  6. To all those smart-asses saying it couldn't be suicide because he didn't looked depressed enough or he didn't give enough warning: Luckily, I've never been depressed for no apparent reason (I've been depressed with good reason, but I think everybody agrees that's different). But I have known some people who suffered from clinical depression. One of the big shocks of my life was when I was organizing a big event, and I had this guy I knew helping with the sound system. I knew he suffered from depression, but he was around the day before on the general rehearsal, and he seemed pretty normal to me. On the big day, he didn't turn up. Luckily, I found somebody else to set up the sound system, and anyway, sound wasn't too critical for this event, as long as the mikes worked as expected. I was absolutely furious that he didn't turn up and he was impossible to contact... until I got news that he had attempted suicide that night. I had seen no signs at all of that. That's when I found out that depressives can and do decide to kill themselves pretty much out of the blue, and to hell with warning anyone. His former girlfriend spent an hour telling me not to blame myself for not noticing anything, because the same thing had happened to her once, and of course she knew him so much better.

    1. Very well said, Maria. It's amazing to me how misunderstood depression is and how suicide can occur without warning or foreknowledge. Unfortunately I've seen this up close and personal recently. A person who seemed like the most vivacious, most creative person in the world committed suicide. And there was strong indication that there was a pharmacological influence at work. I know for a fact that highly-addictive psychiatric drugs can cause suicidal ideation that literally disappears when you stop taking that medication.

  7. //The Muses choose broken vessels. It's a Secret Sun truism. // And so do the Yamas, who want us dead as much as the Muses want to play with us alive. Ergo, depression and addiction do not go well together. Death's minions follow addicts around right next to the muse.

    Depression on its own can, sometimes does get better. But it never goes away completely, just like the annoying roommate and sweet little girl in _A Beautiful Mind_. And it does pop up for no particular reason, like a pesky, hallucinatory urchin that wants to give you a loaded gun. One learns to expect it; not fearing it or struggling against, nor giving into it, somewhere there is a passage. But it still unpleasant, only less so in the relative absence of hope and fear. Facing fears again and again and surviving burns away hope and then fear consumes itself. If you survive, that is.

    One can learn to more or less ignore them/it, the same way one ignores being confined to a wheelchair or being homeless.

    1. Very true. And as I've said I believe clinical depression is a direct result of the open air science experiment all of us are guinea pigs in. An inevitable result, really.

    2. In the scheme of things we are biota on a spherical petri dish. Thowing weird shit on it produces tough strains and interesting mutations. Which reminds me. I'm living next to a superfund site and underground facility of uncertain function. Mmmm mmm karma.

    3. Open air science experiment is right, Chris. I call it a hideous black - op hiding in plain sight, but same difference.

  8. To begin with, I might as well be candid in admitting I drifted away from Chris, but aside from some common ground with The X-Files, there was also music. I have stated before it was a magical period between 1988-1992, a lot of great bands and artists came to life during that period, and I really related to it all a lot more than the second half of the 80s, which felt empty to me. Soundgarden had a huge impact on me and opened up ideas about what was possible with music. That was also true with Pearl Jam as well. I was very lucky recently to have gotten a ticket to "Temple of the Dog" last Nov 2016, in SF, and it was a pretty amazing show, the memory of which I'll always cherish. What's odd is that I had a gut feeling months before that I had to get a ticket to it, aside from it being a rare opportunity, something told me it was very needed thing to do and go. The effect of going, days after the election, it was the first moment of any feeling or normalcy or continuity, just standing in that line for the TOTD show, talking to other fans. Concerts are one of the few areas that can give you that sense of community, that's one of the reasons why live music is so important, and I fear more and more it's being lost. Other than the other point about depression, I have intimate experience with this due to my elderly mother, and understand well the effects of lorezepam, having seen it. I now believe that pills alone won't control such a beast, but things like acupuncture can have as much of a positive effect. We are over medicated anyway, and the effort to numb us is not really solving anything to settle the world's ills. Thanks Chris for the observations on this.

    1. Well said, Matt. Good to hear from you. Thanks.

  9. Hi Chris - what a sensitive and comprehensive post this was. Your perceptive insights to period rock music and the musicians that make it has always amazed me. Your overview of where history meets mythology always leaves me reflective about that subject of Muses, music, and fame, but also how I process these things afterwards in my own life.

    My first thought after reading the post was something from the lyrics of the old Hank Williams tune, "The Men with Broken Hearts" which seems so appropriate now:

    "You'll meet many just like me upon lifes busy street.
    With shoulders stooped and heads bowed low and eyes that stare in defeat.
    For souls that live within the past where sorrow plays all parts,
    For a living death is all that's left for men with brokens hearts.
    You have no right to be the judge, to criticize and condemn.
    Just think but for the grace of God it would be you instead of him.
    One careless step, a thoughtless deed and then the misery starts
    And to those who weep death comes cheap, these men with broken hearts." -- Hank Williams, "The Men with Broken Hearts"

    Thank you again for helping clarify and bring resonance to the confusing times unraveling for all of us.

    1. Hank WIlliams would have known, given the chronic pain condition he had that led to his substance abuse problems. He was almost like Kurt Cobain in that regard. Thanks, Bill.

  10. As someone who has suffered from depression throughout my life I find this post particularly sensitive and touching. It's a real issue. I've been suicidal a number of times because of the shit I've seen and experienced. And my life has been practically blessed with good fortune compared to some. Soundgarden, and Audioslave to some extent, was a big part of my formative years along with Bowie and others. I've walked that nightmarish edge of hopelessness. It ain't no picnic. The Secret Sun helped save me in so many ways. A true light in my life. So I empathise greatly with these tragic tales of suicide. To someone on the outside taking your own life seems incomprehensible, but when you're in that abyss it can seem like the only solve. Thankfully I have a purpose now, and have become stronger than I ever thought possible. Chris, your work directly helped me with this. Not an overstatement by any means. I owe you a debt, sir. There, but for the Grace of God, go I. As they say.

    1. Does an active interest in esoterica help? I only get garden variety anger and sadness, so it's beyond my personal experience.

    2. Thank you, Raj. I feel as if depression is an inevitable side effect for anyone with any kind of innate sensitivity in these chaotic, overstimulated times. It could also be an inevitable result of the overwhelming toxicity of our environment on every single level. I appreciate you being so open and honest.

  11. Its not just an open air experiment we're in, we're guinea pigs (literally) for the pharmaceutical giants as well. Rushing drugs to market before they've been fully tested. How many mass shootings have been perpetrated by individuals on or withdrawing from serotonin reuptake inhibitors, for example? Those things should never have been sold to the public, they're toxic as hell & literally rewire people's brains. There was a time in my 20s when I was on zoloft for depression, that stuff turned me into a zombie for a while, I literally felt like I was behind a thick transparent wall, removed from everything around me. No highs or lows emotionally, everything was just "flattened". & I had zero creative drive. No desire to do...anything. It was hell. Best thing I ever did for myself was get off that crap, which the doctor kept upping the dosage of. I had much better luck treating my depression with a change in diet plus use of St. John's Wort & Siberian ginseng. I also saw a friend of mine with bipolar disorder who got put on prozac have a complete change in personality. He used to be one of the most amazingly creative & genuinely kind individuals I've ever known, but he had real problems with manic depression. After being on prozac for a while, he turned into a status-obsessed materialist a-hole & never engaged in creative pursuits again. It was sad.

    Regarding benzodiazepenes, I had an aunt who committed suicide years ago who was on Ativan & who had problems with alcohol abuse. We (the family) knew she had problems but no one thought they were that bad. Then one day while looking thru an old photo album, I realized that not in a single picture did she smile. The signs were there but we just didn't see them.

    For some good insight into benzodiazepines & the problems surrounding them:


    "Benzodiazepines have a legitimate use in general medicine, and in that context are indeed medicines in the proper sense of the term. But when prescribed for anxiety on a routine, daily basis, they are drugs. They fall into the class of drugs that addictionologists call sedative-hypnotics, and are similar in their general effects to alcohol and opiates. I worked in the chemical dependency field in the late 80’s – early 90’s, and even then we were admitting large numbers of people addicted to benzos. It was, and is, an extremely difficult addiction to overcome. Withdrawals are typically difficult, protracted, and sometimes dangerous. Monica’s Cassani’s website Beyond Meds goes into this in great detail.

    Dr. Frances makes the point – undoubtedly true – that general practitioners prescribe more benzodiazepines than psychiatrists. This is a common cry from psychiatry when confronted with the damage that their products are causing. But the argument is specious, because no practitioners could prescribe these drugs as a daily “treatment” for anxiety if psychiatry had not, in the first place, promoted the false message that anxiety is an illness. No doctor could prescribe these products for these purposes if psychiatry had not invented, packaged, and sold their various anxiety “diagnoses.” When psychiatry embarked on its great mission to medicalize every conceivable human problem, they basically drove the bus off the cliff . Mental health today is still in a state of uncontrolled free fall. And every time we hit an outcropping, or the bus turns end over end, psychiatry says: “Oh dear! How did that happen?” Well it happened because organized psychiatry put money and prestige above intellectual and moral integrity. The damage this has done, and continues to do, is beyond reckoning."

    1. I know all too well about this. In the past year I've weaned myself off 5 different medications that were only making my problems worse. All four are highly addictive and dependency-forming. The problem is that it landed me in a depression that can charitably described as crippling. They had only moderate benefit but my doctor kept pushing them on me and wouldn't listen when I said over and over that I wasn't getting any better. But the problem is that all the doctors I'd seen were pushing the same kinds of drugs. Luckily my doctor got his license pulled and I was able to change doctors and got effective care.

      But I know a guy whose life was nearly ruined by Xanax, even though he was given it originally for a very compelling reason. He's an amazingly talented guy but the benzos are insidious.

  12. You are right Christopher Knowles, I would like to add that mercury poisoning
    and not enough vitamin D3 also contributes to the suicidal tendencies... :(

    1. Yeah, there are a lot of factors that feed into it. Vitamin D is very important- everyone should be tested and find out if they don't have a deficiency.

  13. It can't be understated as to the permanent damage from drinking and drug abuse inflicted on Cornell's developing adolescent brain. It is hard enough going through puberty without additional toxic neurological interference, let alone with an unstable family life and a moody Seattle as your backyard. That gloomy surrealist dischord was always present in his work, and by coincedence I as am visiting Twin Peaks for the first time, very similar to aura Lynch presents in that series. Something in the water in that part of the union perhaps. "Black Hole Sun" video looks curiously like a Lynch product as well. Just some thoughts.

    Cornell was an amazing singer and underrated songwriter. He will be terribly missed.

    1. Out shine in the spirit world dear soul. 87

    2. I agree. And Cornell himself acknowledged this, blaming the depression on a terrible angel dust episode. I was unknowingly dosed with angel dust once when I was young and it was literally like some Jacob's Ladder kind of hell- all color drained out of the world and I felt like I was being pulled into some horrible vortex. I couldn't play any of the records I was listening to during the experience for almost two years after.

  14. I'm from the pacific northwest and the sad thing is, bands like that could not possibly achieve escape velocity these days. Seattle and Portland are playgrounds for rich tech types who are boring a f. Maybe look to Detroit or Youngstown for your next angry youth music movement. These things always arise from where the broken vessels are. Which is not where it's most comfortable.

    1. The whole grunge thing didn't even come out of Seattle, it came out of the suburbs. It eventually converged on Seattle but it was out in the boonies where the music really blossomed.

  15. I didn't recognize the synch with Ian Curtis's death until you mentioned it Chris. It's odd, because the last three months or so I have been listening to Joy Division in an obsessive way, for the first time in my life oddly. And been thinking about Curtis because of that, and I haven't since I saw the excellent film Control almost a decade back.

    I agree with you Chris that there was a terrible inevitability to this, when you are carrying depression around for so long. The surprising thing is that he actually made it past 50. Curtis wasn't even half that age.

    I had a cousin throw himself in front of a train after he stopped taking opioids for depression. Why are they still on the market? Uh money. Lots of it. Psychiatrists are just drug salesmen.

    1. Opioids are for operations and accidents. They're for short term pain relief. Long term they basically short-circuit any part of your brain that lets you experience the world with any fullness or pleasure.

      Ian Curtis is a tragic case- his career was taking off just as his epilepsy became debilitating. It breaks your heart. Cornell's issues were no less serious but burned on a lower heat.

  16. Found myself listening to "Badmotorfinger" just a few weeks earlier. Hadn't listened to much Soundgarden in recent years. Yet it felt like it was time. A great post, made under sad circumstances.

  17. Hi Chris,
    This was a superb post---a 13 on a scale of 1 to 10!
    There are so many thoughts coursing thru my little brain about muses needing broken vessels, depression and the like that I will have to mull over them and come back soon.
    I do want to say to people to watch the fk out for opiates etc! I almost went to the great beyond in June last year (blood clots not opiates) - how close? Well before they put me on life support the doc told me that the heparin and other stuff they were going to do might cause a brain bleed ---but that I was going to die for sure in a matter of hours if they did nothing.
    Very long story short when I got out of hospital my doc for the past 18 years was under investigation for some things and I no longer had immediatee access to 240 oxy a month ---(the 7.5s) 120 methadone a month and 45 Xanax a month!
    Let me tell u ---my former doc did me no favors by overprescribing my meds!
    In fact I think he did enormous harm
    So now I am down to 3 ox a day--no mdone
    And half a Xanax and of course all will keep going down.
    And I still have awful pain (this isn't a sob story altho I know it sounds like one)
    And my frikking brain is on my old dosing schedule so I am 4ever aware that I am not getting something my brain is screaming for!
    I was on ox since about 2003 but starting heavy dosages prob around 2007 so there is no telling the damage I've done to myself with completely legal medical help!
    Please people please watch out for this stuff and don't get on it if at all possible!
    Love the Secret Sun and RIP to Curtis, Cobain, Cornell and all of the other "broken vessels" who shared their enormous genius with the world! The music and poetry will always live on!

  18. Depression is really difficult to deal with. A lot of musicians, myself included, are muaicians in large part because of it. And, if youre a musician, you will not long be a stranger to some tragedy around you.

    Depression is always there. But then it also comes in waves. And theres nothing to do about it, maybe write a song if you can focus that long. Avoid drugs if you once survived them. They only make it worse.

    Those singers and their bands were everything to me for quite a while when I was younger. And its funny, I resolved last month to ditch playing punk rock and do a grunge inspired band instead. That will take some time to come into fruition but its going to happen. I ran from it when it got "xeroxed into oblivion", but im going back to my old mistress and it will be perfectly depressing.

    RIP Chris C.
    RIP Izzy Cox

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  20. Cornell's death hit me a lot harder than most other music deaths--those both recent and in the past. It always seemed inevitable with Cobain, Staley wasn't much of a surprise for similar reasons, and Weiland always gave the impression that he had already cheated death one too many times over the years and his luck had finally run out. Others had been getting old and had also lead rough lives, so they weren't too too surprising. Prince was shocking, but while I love his music, I wasn't as emotionally invested in it as I was Chris Cornell's. However, Cornell was a different story. I actively listen to his music--from Soundgarden through his solo records. In fact, the last thing I had listened to before I heard the news of his death was Audioslave.

    I knew about the depression, but he always seemed to be relatively grounded and confident. His peers (both living and dead) on the other hand, always came off as neurotic geeks in one way or another. Cobain was depressed and full of self-loathing (and heroin), and Staley tortured (possessed?) and actively pursuing a death by heroin. Eddie Vedder seemed to be relatively balanced, but he also appeared to be uncomfortable with just being himself and the the validity of his own musical vision; as if he was always worrying what the "cool" kids thought of his music. Cornell didn't seem to have any of those issues. He was a gorgeous alpha male amongst the arty wimps (whether that is a fair assessment or not). He looked comfortable with his shirt off and rocking a soul-man mustache and chin-beard. He always seemed to have complete confidence in his music, no matter what direction he went with it, and didn't seem to care what others thought about it or whether it was cool enough. And while I was aware of the depression, I also thought that he had managed to make it out of those crucial high-risk years of his 20's and early 30's and had gained enough perspective on life in middle-age to surf the random turbulence of a troubled psyche. But, I guess you can never really know with depression, and then throw in powerful medication and you are playing with fire.

    In San Francisco they still talk about one of (the then unknown) Soundgarden's first shows at some small club where Chris Cornell came out wailing like a combination of Robert Plant, Ozzy Osbourne, and Howlin' wolf--wearing shorts, Doc Martin's, and no shirt--and then Indiana Joneses the microphone cord around a beam in the club ceiling and Tarzans into the crowd. Blew people's minds.

  21. Personal opinion, bit I highly doubt he's dead. Faking deaths so these bums can retire is the norm. Cc=33 name was changed for a reason.

  22. Suicide determined within 12 hours.

    Head wound visible in video, mentioned on police radio (see YT), no mention in autopsy.

    Chris was in BAD SHAPE that gig. . I've seen him a total of 17 times, SG & solo, 15 since 2012. It’s disturbingly obvious. 1st line of the first song, he doesn’t even slur, just makes a noise in his throat. VERY WRONG.

    Chester Bennington's suicide, on Chris's birthday, SAME M.O.

    Nearly Forgot My Broken Heart (final vid released): Chris about to be hanged, cheats death by trickery, survives.

    Changed last name from 'Boyle' to Cornell. CC = 33.

    Dave Mustaine's intolerably crap tribute cover of Outshine: flips a 666 just before he starts.

    Vicky cremated his body ASAP, BEFORE THE FUNERAL. Cremation is a NO ON in the Greek Orthodox faith, which Chris converted to before marrying her.

    Black Hole Sun is a reference to Saturn, I’ll prove it:
    Track 9 on King Animal: Black Saturday. DONE, and you know it. But I’ll go on:
    Image search ‘Soundgarden sawblade logo’. Triangle on Black Sun wheel design. OBVIOUS.
    There’s the other SG logo, the stylized S/G combo character: no getting past the swastika angle.
    Nail in the coffin: first pic below: BLACK CUBE. PLAN 9, SOUNDGARDEN.

    No suicide note.
    Fox (666) Hotel staff member mentioned hearing a scuffle in his room.
    Chris’s mobile not taken into evidence; disappeared o/s with the “family friend” who told several conflicting versions of events.
    I’m Chris’s height, 6’3” – hanging with an exercise band, from a bathroom door?! Can’t see how.

    I agree 100% with the first commenter about your bias: too slanted, too soon. The comments section is a circlejerk, bar me and the other guy opting for HONESTY. Shame, ‘cos I’m a huge Killing Joke fan, but no getting past it, something fishy when a blog called ‘Second Sun’ tries to de-amplify the BLACK SUN links with Chris Cornell.

    Couple final things:
    (1) I’m Facebook friends with Youth, from Killing Joke (I’ve met & hung out w them). I posted L7’s ‘We Pretend We’re Dead’ vid a couple years back. Funny thing: Youth, and the guy who made the KJ doco, both reposted it, VERY quickly. Noticably. Diving down the Paul (McCartney) is Dead rabbit hole subsequently, I’ve got a hunch I know why. Chris’s death makes it very hard to deny.
    (2) Chris is a member of the Pug club; the disproportionate # of celebs who own, and over-post photos of Pugs. It’s a thing—Robin Williams was one, and he hung himself, weird huh? He mentioned their being the MOST LOYAL breed. Cute. When you’re done catching up on suicide prevention & depression homework, it’d be worth finding out if there was ever an occult group built around PUGS. With Pug in the name. Linked to Freemasons. Do report back to the circlejerk, Sun-Sun / Sun-Two / Sun Tzu (Art of War Rule # 1: DECEPTION. ALWAYS)

    Two eyes, two suns, too heavenly blind.

    1. You want honesty? No, actually you don't. No one wants honesty. Not in cases like this. You go on chasing down conspirators hither and yon. I am certainly not going to stop you.

      Chris Cornell was a great artist- one of the greatest hard rock talents of all time. But he was also a human being with a lot of neurological and psychological problems. I get it, I really do.

      There but for the grace of God and all the rest of it.

      Do what you gotta do, Tiger. I understand.

  23. The Word of God tells us that Satan comes like a roaring lion seeking whom he may devour and that He is a thief and comes to kill, steal and destroy but Jesus Christ came to give life and life more abundantly.

    Both Cornell, Bennington and INXS Michael Hutchens were killed by devils that came in thru drugs and dabbling with the occult.

    All three needed an Exorcism and to know Jesus Christ as LORD but were killed by demons

  24. The autopsy specifically mentioned drugs weren't a factor in Cornell's death. Yet he was barely holding it together during the gig (and appeared to have a head wound, as per the video, and the police radio transcript—which failed to make the autopsy).
    None of the above adds up. I concede, the one point *potentially* undermines the other (autopsy finding drugs not a factor / Chris obviously impaired during the gig). However:
    a) drugs aren't the only plausible reason for Chris's impairment (head wound’s a pretty good candidate), and
    b) the in-congruence / conflict between the above observations is replicated across far too many other points / areas of evidence to dismiss further inquiry.

    Yet your position on said discrepancies* is characterized not only by vague lack of interest, disinterest, and dismissal of any scenario other than the one you adopted before attempting to apprehend any evidence other than that provided by TMZ or whomsoever-the-fuck the case may (or may not) be; you’re apparently more than satisfied with the rhetorical power conferred by smugly attributing motives to others with an air of NostraDumbass-like certainty, as your sub-cursory response STRENUOUSLY suggests, Sir, given its reliance on same in lieu of (and unbolstered by) the addressing, refutation, or countering of even one of the many points I raised, the majority of which benefit from my having painstakingly availed myself of supplementary resources (over and above Perez Hilton or whichever Godforsaken content aggregator delivered his/her/its blather to you, Sir)—rather than pontificating that "gee whiz Fonz, looking back at stuff like Cornell's lyrics, the whole drop-D / “none-Blacker-than-us” / “ours goes to 11” vibe of Northwestern disgruntlement, even the jokey-epithet "FROWNGARDEN" perhaps: you could almost accuse Cornell of a harbouring a DOWNER VIBE…in my opinion, at least…yeah? "
    Don't forget to secure the rights to your piercing insight there David Frick, before one of your dastardly (yet inferior) compatriots snatches up the fruits of your perspicacity, quicker than you can blush after breathlessly uttering the phrase "Killing Joke is the sound of the earth vomiting!" aloud the first (and last) time, and realizing how fucking TRAGIC it sounds (even if your audience is limited to your recently acquired girlfriend—tragic is tragic).
    I shall refrain from reiterating the superiority of my knowledge of, taste in, and far greater devotion to all things SOUNDGUARDIAN; the cognoscenti will long since have discerned as much such from my deft grammatical nuance and subject matter expertise…oh fuck this for a lark, this crack ain’t gonna smoke itself.

    Let us prey (come together with your hands)

    Together With Our Hands, We Come*
    Save Us
    We’re Together With Your Plan
    Come On, Come One
    Come On Like Us All

    PS: Spoonman is the new Guy Fawkes.

  25. I first heard Soundgarden as an inpatient in 1986. We are his crowd. You're going to hear conspiracy theories that sound so logical, they *could* easily be true. We don't want to believe the most talented man on the planet took his own life. It's a defense mechanism for the masses.

    One thing, though, I was a lab rat in the 80's and was given prescriptions that DID make me focus on suicide - Risperadol - I called it "risk it all". I took Ativan and it was like a weak Valium as I recall, but it did deepen my depression. I finally realized the drugs made everything worse so I don't take anything except Clonopin 0.5 mg to try to sleep. I take the same horrific heartburn pill found in his system - Omeprazole. THAT pill is evil. It causes kidney damage, but if you try to stop taking it, the contents of your stomach come into your throats and start choking you - effortlessly. Big pharma wants us on their pills badly enough to make something that should be innocuous (heartburn pill) addictive with consequences. The best advice I have is to avoid taking anything at all. I'm 54 and lived a very similar early life as Chris. Even experimenting with recreational drugs causes brain damage. Not everything should be tried, even in moderation.

    1. I also have in my despair or as a result of psychosis taken Haldol, Risperadol, Seroquel and others. Once you start doing these drugs and get side-effects, dont't stop at once, even if you have only swallowed for a few days. If you do, you risk severe damage, I had liver- and other pain for over a year.
      Peter Breggin is a guy you could turn to, one of the rare psychiaters who can be really helpful.